Friendship's Vision (In a Nutshell)

Let's me take this opportunity to talk a little bit about myself.

Throughout my life, I have been a pretty shy person. When I was younger, I was REALLY shy, I mean...I was actually AFRAID to talk. I was afraid to embarass myself and what other people would think. I just couldn't express myself in almost any way. Even today, I still have some of the effects from that era.

So, because I was afraid to talk, I observed a lot. I listened a lot. My friends, my family, the "cool guys" at school. I analyzed their mannerisms, the way they talked, things that highlighted the speech, that made me think: "hey, he/she is cool". So, I started to adapt those mannerisms to myself, to try to lose my shame and be able to socialize better. And, with that, I started to be nicer person. I felt that my friends were liking me more and made a lot of new friends and that made me really happy. 

I have met a lot of people in my life, mainly because of the Brazil-Japan conflict in my routine. A lot of hellos, a lot of goodbyes...

It is pretty common to have friends and etc. But one day, I heard the phrase "Man, you're my best friend". I was like...OMG, REALLY? The impact that I received was huge. Suddently, I started to feel the meaning of that. When you feel free to talk about anything with that person, even the most ridiculous, bizarre, personal subject, they are gonna be there to hear you, laugh with you and to criticize you...and you're gonna be happy about it!

Well, after this I got a lot more of "best friends" that I love so much and miss. Sadly, most of them are in Brazil, and it hurt when I left them all in 2012. Since then, I just found one person that made me feel the same way, but...lately I'm not feeling the same for that person...A couple of weeks ago I started to think about our situation and started to feel far away of him. I no longer felt confortable to tell him all about my feelings and etc. I started to feel a little lonely and missing a true friend.

But a couple of days ago, I heard "You're my best friend" once again. I gained that day.I considered that person my best friend too since last month. I was REALLY happy, knowing that I have a real friend that I can count on and trust, that will laugh at my disgrace with me and confort me on my times of trouble and vice versa. I just can't describe more here...It is just amazing. In my mind this was going to get a lot longer, hahaha. But friendship is just like love, we can't just describe it. You live it, you feel it, you make it.

Since I failed miserably on the details of my feelings, next time I will post a shameful story of my life :D See ya!